Already

I can't believe it is already the end of the semester. Today is my last day of class. I don't want to go. I hate saying goodbyes.

I looked up 'goodbye' in my journal, hoping to learn from things I learned before. A song that doesn't have a tune yet, from March 9:

I hoped and I prayed
for you to be
there with me.
I couldn't do it without you.
While at the moment
of each prayer
you were there
and everywhere else, too.
Because there's nowhere to run,
nowhere to go,
nowhere under the sun
where you aren't already.

You were already here
when I landed.
Before I planned it
you knew I'd be coming.
You were ready and willing
to let me know
wherever I go
I won't be running.
Because there's nowhere to run,
nowhere to come,
nowhere under the sun
where you aren't already.

You are back at my house
with my sister.
How I miss her,
But I know she understands
that you're still with the ones
I hugged goodbye.
Don't have to cry.
You will be there when I can't.
Because there's nowhere to stand,
nowhere to stay,
nowhere in any land
where you aren't already.

You are there where I'll go.
All my plans
are in your hands.
You will never be surprised.
What peace and amazement
that you know
where I'll go.
I couldn't hide if I tried.
Because there's nowhere to run,
nowhere to travel,
nowhere under the sun
where you aren't already.

You'll be there when I leave.
On the plane
you will sustain.
And you'll prepare my heart
to be as ready as can be
to go home.
I'll always roam,
But from my home in you I'll never depart.
Because there's nowhere to run,
nowhere to go back,
nowhere under the sun
where you aren't already.